Once I was a very pessimistic person: I put myself in a victim position. I was a unlucky person, things never turned out in my favour and the world were therefore unfair. Every time something went wrong I told myself that it was because I was unlucky and it was a typical situation for me. Hard work just did not pay off for me.
Many years ago I won a course about the book “The Secret” and how to use its approach in practice. I’ve never heard about the book, but the course was an eye-opener. I realised my way of thinking was not healthy. I attracted negative energy. So I had to change my way of talking to myself: I told myself I was a lucky person and good things happened to me. A fun story to add here is that one day I was on my way to work, driving in my parents car, when I was happily telling myself all these positive things. 2 minutes after I had my first car accident. I kind of lost all hope for a while after this episode 😀 But I kept on practicing the good energy for years with different level of enthusiasm.
I have learned a lot about my self since that course and especially the last to years have been interesting. My life has changed, I have been up and I have been down. I have felt hopeless, confused and frustrated. But after my 2 months of travelling I learned something new about life. Or maybe I already new it, but suddenly it was clear to me: I was standing on a beach in Mexico at a reggae concert when the band played the song “Three little birds” by Bob Marley. The lyric goes like this:
“Don’t worry about a thing,
‘Cause every little thing gonna be all right”
The words made a big impression on me. I thought about my different experiences in life and my present situation (my boyfriend and I had just splittet up and we had 1 week back in Mexico, going back 4 months before to no job and no home). I just smiled and thought to myself “yes, everything is gonna be all right – as it always will”.
Knowing this has ever since made me very calm. I am not that worried anymore because yes.. I know everything is gonna be all right 🙂 All I need is time.